My Birth-Day
My day of coming into the world to express my soul gifts and fulfill the mission I was sent here to do. This is of utmost importance and in the forefront of my being today and everyday now as I sit at home on medical leave to heal myself. An opportunity to get me to STOP and LISTEN, to deeply pay attention to the choices I am making!
My only focus is to get medical interventions and treatments of all modalities to help, heal, and enhance the power of each treatment. Integrative care is complimentary meaning each one helps the other to be more powerful.
The MIND is the other aspect of this journey that is all powerful and I see this as a main area of healing and transformation for me. Where this exploration will take me, I am excited to see!
Carmen made me cards to pull everyday and today I pulled:
“I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO OVERCOME THE CHALLENGES THAT ARE SET BEFORE ME.”
How perfect is that for Monday morning! Just what I needed to reflect back to me. I made my oatmeal/millet cereal with dates and prunes, fresh blueberries and the Budwig mix – sheeps yogurt (which I’ve discovered I love!) with flax oil – and some cinnamon. Sat and ate the whole bowl and then indulged in a little mindful coloring.
A week before my birthday, I had my 1st of 5 surgeries. It's a minor operation for a port a cath. This makes it easier for me to receive all of the infusions over the coming months. (Also, less needles!) Only being day surgery, there wasn’t much preparation as I’d be in and out in about five hours.
Before surgery I had an hour to wait so listened to all of Danny Williams meditations on Frantic World. An hour of meditation brought me to a deeply relaxed state prior to going for surgery.
So much birthday love and wishes that came in from family, friends, and colleagues. Grateful.
Jutta was my nurse there and she was so lovely, warm, and kind. When I woke up from the anesthetic the only words that came to me were ‘ONE LOVE.’ It was crazy, I was in this euphoria of love all around me. I told my team I loved them and then I went on to talk to Jutta all about how people need to accept and love each other more regardless of their religion. I told her about my work with school kids in Kuwait and how I found a word that would stop them from fighting about their differences regardless of where they came from in the Middle East. This word is ‘al mahaba’ and it is a word that transcends petty differences. It unites and brings people together. We need to use words that can transcend our differences and bring us closer towards a meeting of our hearts.
Once I felt like I could leave the day clinic, I walked down to the Onkozentrum Klinik just 200m away, the sun welcoming me to a place about to become very familiar. Today marks the beginning of the chemo treatments. I started with 1 hour infusion and then went home with a 24 hour gift bag:) I sat outside in the garden talking to my doctor and one of the nurses about the process. It was all quite relaxing and lovely. Geoff dropped me off for day surgery and then picked me up from the chemo clinic. A day like no other and to my surprise went by so smoothly.